A Weight Has Been Lifted

So I was at Garden City Beach Camp a couple of weeks ago, right? Well while I was there I took this class called "Testify" pretty much talking about how we can witness in our every day lives. Well on one of the days, we read this verse in Revelation and it was talking about what Hell would be like. Our teacher asked us how it made us feel and I said that it makes me want to reach some of my friends more. I talked about how one reason I felt so strongly about Gary dying was because I wonder what more I could have done as a friend to make sure of his destination. My teacher said that she understood and that we can't save everyone. Sometimes there's not much more you can do than be a Godly example, especially when they are confident in their own religion. Although I don't want that to be an excuse, it really made me feel a lot better about the situation. A weight truly has been lifted off of my shoulders. It's way overdue. And though I will always miss him and love him, I'm finally accepting that sometimes, you don't have control and you shouldn't feel guilty.