This semester, God has taught me more about Himself than ever before. All of the things He taught me were things I already knew to be true about Him, but it finally clicked why they were such amazing things. One thing He made clear was His never-ending, never-changing, forever-faithful love. As I mentioned in a different blog, I went through a break up this semester. I wish it hadn't affected me the way that it did, but it made me feel very negatively about myself and love in general. It reminded me that people will fail you, and that the things of this earth don't last forever. I realized that unfortunately I had placed some of my identity in this relationship and my hope in his affection for me instead of the love that Christ gives. After everything happened, it became clear to me what it meant for God's love to be unfailing. He will never disappoint me or decide I'm not worth it. His love is not dependent on what I do or do not do, what I look like, or how well I perform whether that is in earthly accomplishments or those of eternal value. He loves me enough that He sent Jesus to die for me so that I might spend eternity with Him. Even if I do find a man to spend my life with on Earth, his love will never be able to compare to Christ's love.
Another huge thing I learned was how amazing God's grace and forgiveness is. As I went through cycles of being "alright" and cycles where I was bitter toward love and figured that I would spend the rest of my life alone with all my cats, I also went through the process of trying to forgive this boy who broke my heart and trust and made me believe things about myself that are not true. Everywhere I looked I was being told to forgive and to give the grace that Christ gives us, and I think I'm finally there, but this is after several months of arguing with myself and trying to make my heart match with what I knew God wanted me to do. As a sinful person, it was so hard for me to give grace and act toward him with love as my brother in Christ. Then I realized, that for God it doesn't take several months. I doesn't even take several hours. Christ's grace showers us immediately and God doesn't love us differently after that, and His feelings towards us are no different. While I was over in my room praying that God would make my flesh forgive him, He already granted me grace and Daniel grace; no questions asked. I think God reminds us of how broken we are to remind us how perfect He is. I can never measure up to how amazing God is, but I can start to show others just a glimpse by giving them the same love and grace that Christ gives me. I'm daily reminded of how amazing God's love is, and how thankful I am that He chose to love a sinner like me.
If any of this confused you, or you have questions, feel free to contact me and we can talk more about it. But the gist is God's love is amazing. The end.
Another huge thing I learned was how amazing God's grace and forgiveness is. As I went through cycles of being "alright" and cycles where I was bitter toward love and figured that I would spend the rest of my life alone with all my cats, I also went through the process of trying to forgive this boy who broke my heart and trust and made me believe things about myself that are not true. Everywhere I looked I was being told to forgive and to give the grace that Christ gives us, and I think I'm finally there, but this is after several months of arguing with myself and trying to make my heart match with what I knew God wanted me to do. As a sinful person, it was so hard for me to give grace and act toward him with love as my brother in Christ. Then I realized, that for God it doesn't take several months. I doesn't even take several hours. Christ's grace showers us immediately and God doesn't love us differently after that, and His feelings towards us are no different. While I was over in my room praying that God would make my flesh forgive him, He already granted me grace and Daniel grace; no questions asked. I think God reminds us of how broken we are to remind us how perfect He is. I can never measure up to how amazing God is, but I can start to show others just a glimpse by giving them the same love and grace that Christ gives me. I'm daily reminded of how amazing God's love is, and how thankful I am that He chose to love a sinner like me.
If any of this confused you, or you have questions, feel free to contact me and we can talk more about it. But the gist is God's love is amazing. The end.
