sigh

SIGH! that's how I can explain life right now. Everything seems to be falling down around me. Junior year sucks. the workload, Gary, Dee's cousin. It's all so much. But I know it's all happening for a reason. I think God's trying to get our attention somehow. Maybe He is trying to tell us to stop wasting our lives, because it's over before you know it. I think people underestimate how much time they have left on this earth. and when they die, the wall between them and God becomes permanant. God's trying to get my attention to the people around me who desperately need Him. i can't keep putting it off. I need to get back on track. I need to live my life as a reflection of Him. not the world. I love my friends too much to not show them the love of God.

there's a first time for everything...

So this is my first blog. cool. cool. Well I guess I'll just reflect. This year has been, by far, the hardest. Losing a friend, starting IB, switching churches, boyfriend going to college. It's all so much. In all this craziness, I've lost my spiritual discipline. I haven't been doing my quiet time like I should. I procrastinate way too much. I don't know what's getting into me. I have so much to keep up with and I keep pushing God out of the way. In reality, I should be pushing the world out of the way so I can spend time with the Lord. But I'm not going to keep pushing God to the end. He is my first priority. Nothing and no one will come before Him. As it should be. 

Thanks for reading my thoughts. Hopefully my next blog will be better. As I said, there's a first time for everything. Usually, that first time, doesn't really work out to your expectations. lol. Love yall!