Constantly

I am constantly being humbled. Not only am I humbled in my interactions with other people, but I'm reminded that I am nothing compared to God. I have not accomplished anything in comparison to (well lots of people) everything God has done. In almost every song I listen to I am reminded of reality. For example, in the song "Give Me Faith", the lyrics of the bridge go something like this: I may be weak, but your Spirit's strong in me My flesh may fail, but my God you never will! This not only reminds me of how dependent we are on God, but how God can completely consume us and make us do a 180. I look back through time and history and the men God used were otherwise nothing. They only became something great and memorable because God consumed them. In all honesty, we are all worthless without Christ. We are sinful and evil people who deserve Hell. My education, my accomplishments, my "wealth": none of that makes a difference in my amount of worth. My identity is in Christ and him alone. Of course I forget that from time to time. I get so caught up in how I can change my looks in order to give myself worth. I stress out over homework and making myself seem smarter than I already am so I can gain the approval of my peers both in college and from high school. I've tried to find my worth in boys and relationships, but none of these things can give me true worth. Only Christ and his grace and mercy can do that. and thank you, God, for that. Otherwise I'd be absolutely hopeless.

You Either Have to Bring a Lamp, or dress like one...

Saturday was our Leadership Retreat for BCM and ohmygoodnessitwasamazing. I'm sure if I've expressed this is great detail, but I.Love.BCM. I feel like it's my second family. We all grow in Christ together and are so excited to get Christ on our campus. So at this "retreat", we planned for the rest of the semester and next year and let me just say that it's going to be amazing. After this wonderful day of wonderfulness, a bunch of awesome kids and I went to eat dinner together and then had a BAKING PARTY in my hall kitchen. We made brownies and these cookies that apparently no one liked, and tie dye cupcakes! They were pretty awesome. just saying. Later that night, I was having a conversation with my friend Gabby about something called a "Lamp Party". Apparently you either dress up like a lamp or bring a lamp. I don't understand why you would do that. It's like... the same logic as... you either dress up like a microwave, or you bring a microwave. Like... seriously? What is this nonsense?! The only reason I can see someone doing that is that they haven't paid their electric bill in forever, so their lights got turned off. In that case, no one should come to the party, because that person is just lazy and needs to pay his bills. In all seriousness, I do not understand. It makes no sense. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ich will das!!!

Ich will! Ich will!

Never Again

I will never again tell God no when I feel him telling me to go somewhere. I will never again make money the reason why I can't go. This week a team from my church in Columbia is in Haiti on a mission trip and I wanted to go and knew I was supposed to go. I didn't though, because it cost over a thousand dollars and I didn't have a passport. I made excuses on why I couldn't go and I didn't. All week I have regretted that decision immensely. I see the pictures and my heart aches and I yearn to be there with those children. Although I am helping make pillows for children in Haiti, I feel like I should have a more immediate impact. So like I said, the moral of the story is to never make money the thing that keeps you from going on missions. I will go where God wants me to go and do what he wants me to do.

19 WHAAAAA??!!!

Hello there.

Today I turned 19. This is quite a weird age. Like... 18 was cool you know? You graduate high school when you're 18. You start college when you're 18. You can officially vote and buy cigarettes and lottery tickets. Now when you're 20, you're no longer a teenager! You're in a new stage of life. 19 though, nothing happens there. There's nothing special about this age. Birthday's are always fun though :) regardless of what age.

So for this particular birthday, I spent the night with one of my bestest friends, Worthy. Then today (my actual birthday), I spent time with my familia. We went to Five Guys, obviously the classiest place to eat, and then just hung out at home. My mom then took me to CVS to get *oh snap* makeup.

Now for those of you who know me (aka anyone who reads this) I don't wear too much makeup. It's just not my thing. So I got some simple stuff. BROWN mascara, some natural eye shadow color, some super legit EOS lip balm (the one that looks like a ball), and NAIL POLISH!!!

I like nail polish a lot... if you didn't already know that. awesome glitter. pretty colors. yay!

My mom also gave me some awesome sandals :) yay! They're super cute.

Tomorrow we're finishing my birthday. We're having awesome shrimp scampi pasta yumminess and then.. wait for it... GERMAN CHOCOLATE CAKE!! om nom freakin nom.

On a completely unrelated note, I've been watching my share of How I Met Your Mother recently. If you don't watch it, do it! please? pretty... please?